why?why do I HAVE to wait a thousand days ?is it that FATE is not by my side?
i'm soooo ANGRY!! i wnt to shout, cry and destroy everything in my way at the same time.i hate this so much....y is it me the one that has to suffer like this, when everyone has his bf or gf a few blocks away from them? it isn't fair at all...
i hate to be in love with someone that i know deep in my heart i can't have....no matter how much he loves me, he's far away from me....and once we thought everything was going to work out....it didn't....things are worse.
he can't leave his duties, i can't leave mine...so what now?what am i supposed to do? forget him, like nothing ever happened?wait more?
i don't now what else to do i'm frustrated i am....sad.
When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine. When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that. Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "
find happiness....find a partner...find a guy.....find love (L)
Well..well..well...here we are again...after what i decided to call: A BRAND NEW PAGE ON THE BOOK.which book?...life's book..isn't that obvious? if it wasn't, now it is =)
Starting with feelings while i listen "Stolen" by Dashboard Confessional...can we actually describe what it feels when u're about to live something completely new and unknown at the same time? It's quite hard to...but i'll do my best...
let me put it this way....have u ever felt like this "thing" in ur stomach? or the suddenly rush of wanting to run away from where u are, just because u're scared or nervous about what's comming? that's how i felt last monday
8.00 am...i was standing on that hallway....waiting for someone else to arrive...and i was scared to death!!!! they started arriving..but they were all with some friend....or with someone they just met...but still with someone by the side...and i was like...okey..can anyone say something? hehe and suddenly the place was full of ppl...all with the same feelings, with the same goal....STARTING COLLEGE =)
now...a week passed from that monday i was totally freaked out, and i'm the happiest person in the whole world! well...maybe not the happiest...but i'm close :P
new people...new friends...new places...new activities...new professors....new page of the book....new life =)
the only thing i have to say i missed a loooooooooot...were my friends....yep..."las vecis" as i call them...those 3 girls i love with my heart and soul....hell yeah i missed them! (believe me...i cried when i saw them yesterday) They are my support 24/7...even tho i might not speak to them every day....i know they are there by my side.....well, actually one of them is literally by my side cause she's my neighbor but still hehe Empezar una nueva etapa...no siempre es facil...es mas....es bastante dificil!! pero no ai q preocuparce....la vida esta para vivirla...as much as we can....disfrutando, conociendo, sufriendo porq no, amando tambien.....pero sabiendo q uno es capaz d todo...y mas si se lo propone desde lo mas profundo d su corazon....y se lo plantea con todas sus fuerzas! Put all ur energy in sth u like or u want!..but remember to keep some for those u love...cause they probably want u in one piece hehe ^^ College is amazing...as i heard...and i'm planing to live this part of my life exploring and learning everything that cames in my way....beware, cause i'll be there now!!!! hehehe